Nobody Told Me How Real God Gets As You Age

I’m a typical Black Pentecostal church kid.

Grew up in church every Sunday. Communion. Youth choir. Vacation Bible study. All the things.

To this day, my grandma is a high ranking mother in the Church of God in Christ.

I say all that to say, I luh God.

I’ve always reverenced God, always prayed, always felt like He was on my side.

I got baptized as a kid, maybe 9 or 10.

I even went to the back room with the church mother saying, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,” trying to get the Holy Ghost.

I grew up being taught gay is a sin, sex before marriage is a sin, you going to hell.

All the typical harmful church ideologies.

Once I became an adult, I felt free from church.

Just happy that I was no longer required to be at church every time the doors opened.

I maintained somewhat of a relationship with God, still honoring and reverencing Him. Praying mainly when I needed help, and dodging church at all costs.

But as I look back over my years and think of all the dumb decisions I’ve made — and how God protected and covered me through all types of unnecessary BS — I get it now.

As a 38-year-old woman, I finally understand why they used to say:

“When I think of the goodness of Jesus and all that He’s done for me…”

I get why they would take off running before they could even finish.

Man, I wish somebody would have told me how real God gets as you age.

I’ve lived long enough to see God do literal miracles on my behalf.

I’ve lived long enough to develop a prayer life that is powerful and insightful.

I’ve lived long enough to read a Bible on my own.

The older I get, the more I see God and the more I need God.

The way my life has blossomed into let me pray about it first.

God has become so real to me.

It’s exciting and scary at the same time. Because submitting to God leaves you out of control. You don’t know what can happen.

But it’s exciting because knowing that truth — that God truly got you covered — is so necessary in the year of our Lord 2025.

Nobody told me that God really is the cheat code for life.

Or maybe I was told.

But even more, I was showed.🙏🏾

“Highlaylewya” 2025